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bob, update? NO WAI! [23 Jun 2006|03:50pm]

but anywhoo, summer's ok, not being in class is cool, but ive been getting more and more depressed
mood swingy and snappy and doing things like deleting my whole aim buddy list
so my family decided to try and find someone for me to talk to, but the iunsurance company is throwing them through loops instead
oh well
starting sunday i will be gone for two weeks, first i have to go present at the Dependable Systems and Netwroks conference in exotic Philadelphia (last year it was in Tokyo, arent i lucky?)
then i get back one day before i get dragged to Disneyworld
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hey all [22 Mar 2006|11:21pm]
[ mood | dirty ]

i really dont use this thing anymore, even though i think i should quite often.
things are going well and not well.
im very happy with dana, and enjoy any time i get to spend with her
but ive been becoming conscious of the fact that my social circle has been steadily shrinking this year
freshman year i had different groups of people id hang with, people id see for lunch, all sorts of people.
now its dana, chip, briana, dan, and occaisionally katie/john, who seem to be fading out.
and dont get me wrong, they have all in one way or another been there for me through whats been a rough year, and i appreciate them tremendously.
but my self-imposed ban on being in the same room with Rachel (combined with last semester, when the ban was Rachel-imposed) has resulted in a lot of people being squeezed out.
when ive had trouble with my classes this semester, i havent been able to study with anyone, because all of the people that i know in these classes i wouldnt be comfortable spending study time with.
and i still wish sometimes that i could still play D+D with everyone. (since i never update AT ALL, i have to explain here that i played for two weeks with Rachel and others as part of a gradual resumption of friendliness, but she managed in one night to remind me of all the reasons why her not talking to me for three months really wasnt so bad after all, and i quit that week)
i cant help but think that this disentegration of my social group is a result of my flawed personality.
and that given time ill drive away the people that are still here.
except for chip, im pretty sure he'd stay indifferent if i murdered someone in the room, might not even turn away from the computer.
that, and im back home, and my mom is fighting with everyone but me, which is kinda cool but kinda suck cause i dont like seeing the rest of them get crap, especially my dad.
i still dont think im over the mono, ive averaged 11 hours of sleep for 3 nights and passed out this afternoon, 6 hours after id woken up.
in fact, when dana isnt around i tend to be pretty miserable.
who knows where i'd be right now if i hadnt found her.
ill update more often so that my ramblings make more sense eventually

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[08 Dec 2005|01:42pm]
i better get that pony
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[08 Dec 2005|01:42pm]
Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

Last month I turned magikspork in for farting in church (3 points). Last Friday I helped in_the_shadows4 hide a body (-173 points). In January I helped amethystduckie across the street (6 points). In February I pushed chief_guri in the mud (-17 points). Last Thursday I gave biosynthetic a kidney (1000 points).

Overall, I've been nice (819 points). For Christmas I deserve a pony!


Write your letter to Santa! Enter your LJ username:
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[08 Dec 2005|01:40pm]

Oh Great Cthulhu!

I have been an extremely busy devotee this year.

Last week, I fed [info]cheif_guri to a Shoggoth (250 points). In August, I bombed a cultist gathering (-100 points). In June, I recruited [info]cthulu_4 as a new cultist (30 points). When the stars were right, I made a burnt offering to the Dead Dreamer (100 points). In November, I defiled the grave of that traitor, Lovecraft (90 points). In July, I visited my relatives in Innsmouth (100 points).

In short, I have been very good (470 points) and deserve to be eaten first.

Your humble and obedient servant,

Submit your own plea to Cthulhu!

Name some friends or leave them blank and let me look them up myself:
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[20 Oct 2005|06:36pm]
yet another stolen random thing that i post because it will gather far more attention than emo moping or 2 pages of "Dana's so awesome <3<3!!111~". PLus it was fun thinking of somethig to say on Elise's lj, so i suppose you'll have fun too. and fun is fun!

If you are reading this, leave one memory of you and me together! It doesn't matter if I know you a little or a lot, or even just online, anything you remember! Next, post this in your blog and see how many people leave a memory about you.
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[25 Jul 2005|01:32pm]
i have decided what i would make the afterlife, if i had any say in the matter.
there wouldn't be separate heaven or hell in the traditional sense
instead, each person would be shown what happened to those they knew after their death
they'd get to see the end of the story
and for some, it would make them feel peaceful and happy
and others would be miserable and guilt-striken
and oersonally, id want to know
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i am without morals! w00t! [25 Jul 2005|01:31pm]
You scored as Loyalty. Yoru value is loyalty. You are always there for your frineds through thick and thin. No one can take that away from you. It is not a question of if you will be there but rather when you will be there. People look up and respect you fro this quality alone. Be proud, they should.












What is your strongest moral value?
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[10 Jun 2005|07:39am]
read this. show all your female friends. it is most hilarious and true.

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frightening... [23 May 2005|08:15pm]
You are 85% Rational, 42% Extroverted, 71% Brutal, and 85% Arrogant.
You are the Sociopath! As a result of your cold, calculating rationality, your introversion (and ability to keep quiet), your brutality, and your arrogance, you would make a very cunning serial killer. You care very little for the feelings of others, possibly because you are not a very emotional person. You are also very calculating and intelligent, making you a perfect criminal mastermind. Also, you are a very arrogant person, tending to see yourself as better than others, providing you a strong ability to perceive others as weak little animals, thus making it easier to kill them. In short, your personality defect is the fact that you could easily be a sociopath, because you are calculating, unemotional, brutal, and arrogant. Please don't kill me for writing mean things about you!

To put it less negatively:

1. You are more RATIONAL than intuitive.

2. You are more INTROVERTED than extroverted.

3. You are more BRUTAL than gentle.

4. You are more ARROGANT than humble.


Your exact opposite is the Hippie.

Other personalities you would probably get along with are the Spiteful Loner, the Smartass, and the Capitalist Pig.



If you scored near fifty percent for a certain trait (42%-58%), you could very well go either way. For example, someone with 42% Extroversion is slightly leaning towards being an introvert, but is close enough to being an extrovert to be classified that way as well. Below is a list of the other personality types so that you can determine which other possible categories you may fill if you scored near fifty percent for certain traits.

The other personality types:

The Emo Kid: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Humble.

The Starving Artist: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant.

The Bitch-Slap: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Humble.

The Brute: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

The Hippie: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble.

The Televangelist: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant.

The Schoolyard Bully: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble.

The Class Clown: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

The Robot: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Humble.

The Haughty Intellectual: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant.

The Spiteful Loner: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Humble.

The Sociopath: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

The Hand-Raiser: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble.

The Braggart: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant.

The Capitalist Pig: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble.

The Smartass: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

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You scored higher than 94% on Arrogance
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[24 Mar 2005|08:43am]
hasnt been a meaningful update in a while, i know
part of it's because i dont look at this much anymore,
but a bigger part is because, i dont know, it just seemed sort of wrong to talk about my recent happiness in this, the seat of my emo whinery. Sorta like this chapter doesnt fit with the rest of the story.
That, and up until very recently i was still waiting for the other shoe to drop, in which case id be able to post a hell of an entry.
But, Im finally starting to accept that this is for real.
And I'm really happy with Rachel.
and thats by far the largest component of whats going on in my life right now.
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this oughtta be interesting... [24 Mar 2005|08:32am]
Post this and see just how many people wanna have sex with you.

Do this it is some funny stuff. Trust me the answers you get back will amaze you. It is good to know. Reply to this anonymously(or not).

1= No
2= Maybe
3= Hell Yeah
4= Get The Condoms
5= My Pants Are Already Off
6= Im In Bed Waiting
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quote stolen from another lj [21 Feb 2005|01:51am]
A good friend will come and bail you out of jail...but, a true friend
will be sitting next to you saying, "Damn...that was fun!"
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im bored... [18 Jan 2005|09:25am]
[ mood | bored ]

[01] Reply with your name and I will write something about you.
[02] I will then tell what song[s] remind me of you.
[03] Next, I will tell you who you remind me of, celebrity/animated or otherwise.
[04] Last, i will try to name a single word that best describes you.
[05] Put this in your journal

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jacking more quizzes off Billy [12 Jan 2005|10:22am]
these have to be 2 of the most disturbing things ive read in my life

Which LJ friends will you sleep with?
LJ Username
Favorite Color
Are you drunk?
Sex in the backseat of a car spdunlm
Sex at a democratic convention chinese_pixie
Sex on a nude beach chief_guri
Hottest sex of your life cthulhu_4
Sex rating - 67%
Number of times you will orgasm 37
This quiz by akasha82 - Taken 112620 Times.
New! Get Free Horoscopes from Kwiz.Biz

a note, for those of you who dont know these people. With the exception of Briana (chinese_pixie), they are all male, and two of them are my best friends since like, forever. *twitches*

Which LJ friends will you sleep with?
LJ Username
Favorite Color
Are you drunk?
Sex in the backseat of a car _pret_tywa_ste_
Sex at a democratic convention dizzywolf3
Sex on a nude beach desertfox84
Hottest sex of your life dizzywolf3
Sex rating - 67%
Number of times you will orgasm 37
This quiz by akasha82 - Taken 112620 Times.
New! Get Free Horoscopes from Kwiz.Biz

well, this one should be better, they're all female at least, but OH NOES!!! Ruth! *shudders* and her sister!
ah well, i do find it humorous that a democratic convention is the location of the hottest sex of my life.
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bow to the king! [07 Jan 2005|08:49am]

I am nerdier than 94% of all people. Are you nerdier? Click here to find out!

its probably a sign of my nerdiness that i am truly proud of this quiz result
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[06 Jan 2005|08:23am]
i have a new e-mail!


i dont plan too use it too much, i just think the whole concept is totally bad-ass.
feel free to send dtuff there

*NOTE: responses from this adress will probably say they are from Melissa Johnson. dont be alarmed by this. hellokitty.com refused to give an account to an 18-year old male, so i signed up as a 14-year old female.
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*taps slippers* there's no place like the dorm, there's no place like the dorm... [22 Dec 2004|07:47am]
winter break blows. its way too long
i dont get back to college for a month.
and my mom is driving me up a fucking wall.
granted, my c in chem is plaenty justification for her to be upset, but still
she makes it about every decision ive ever made
every little mess-up ive madeover the past 18 years

on a lighter note, it is cute to see her squirm over Rachel
last night:
"Don't make me get into a catfight with the in-laws about whether i can take my grandkids to church"
me-"We've been dating 3 weeks! isnt this a LITTLE early to be discussing such things?!?"
mom-"No. This is the kind of thing to figure out early, not the night before the wedding."

im sorry, but im freaking 18, and i happen to believe this whole debate is completely pointless because i have no intention on getting married anytime soon. With the exception of prank weddings, of course.
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[03 Nov 2004|01:36pm]
58 million people.
After all this shit, all the lost jobs, all the needless dead, 58 million of my "countrymen" think Bush is still the best choice for this nation.
He doesnt have to worry about re-election now
He can attack whoever the fuck he wants.
Syria or Iran is next. Maybe both.
And the military's spread too thin as it is.
where exactly do you think the extra soldiers are coming from?
Congress has slipped further into Republican hands.
The fucking Senate minority leader got defeated.
The Republicans need only turn 4 Democrats in the Senate and they become immune to filibusters.
He can pass whatever tax cuts he wants.
Flush our economy down the toilet.
Take 5 or 6 more cracks at that HIDEOUS amendment.
The world has no reason to respect us now.
We knew full what what he did, what he plans to do, and the country has spoken.

Im forming my own fucking party.
Using the couple hundred million ill have made by then.
And im fixing this piece of shit country, assuming any of it's left.
Applications now available for party leadership positions.
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[22 Oct 2004|01:30am]
yeah, i know, its been forever since i posted.
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